sheena is a happy gal=D

What Are Words If You Really Don't Mean Them

2011-03-04T20:55:00.000+08:00

I don't understand guys.

I don't understand relationships.

All along, you knew I was waiting for you. It was only that day that I broke down to you, saying that I am tired of this. But then again, you knew that I would wait for you. It's only April, I should strong enough. After all, I am Sheena Lau, the girl whose optimism and cheerfulness could overpower anything.

I am sorry to say that I am indeed weak and that day was part of the breaking point. But then again, after hearing what your friend told me. I realised that you lied to me.

So are you telling me, that our relationship was build based on a lie? Your beautiful lie?

You asked me "You don't want us anymore."

Since when did I say that?

More like, you don't want us anymore? I don't know.

You told me that you lied. And this is one question I have for you.

" Which part did you lie? "

I honestly do not know what you are thinking now.

All i ask is just for you to tell me the truth.

Let me have a proper closure for once.

I am sorry to say that I really couldn't believe you when you told me you were innocent about that Facebook issue.

I am sorry to say that it is because the facts are just lying down there in front of me.

The truth hurts. Indeed it hurts.

I am very angry.

But I am also very disappointed and sad.

Maybe you are right. That I don't want this anymore.

But then again, my heart is talking to me. Telling me to think again.

Sorry my friends, wanted to post something cheerful but yea.

Anyway, all these drama occurred during this period. My exam period.

DamnFuckShit

I would be off to camp from tomorrow and back on Wednesday. And by then, I promise to post up more pictures and more of my cheerful life!

Thank god the people going as crew doesnt read my blog. Though it is sad that no one reads my blog, but I guess, this is what i call privacy?

My blog is like my online diary.

I pin down all my thoughts into this little space so that one day, I would read back and ponder on what I should have done, what I should not have done etc.

And for those who reads my blog and happens to see me, please do not ask me what happened. Just sit beside me and offer me your shoulder.

Just a simple "How are you feeling now?" would be sufficient.

At least for my camp tomorrow, I am assured that no one knows about this as they do not read my blog and at least, I can fake a smile and pretend that things are alright.

All i want is just a simple hug.

Realised I kept typing the word "simple" ?

Because life is just too complicated at this moment and I just want to live a simple lifestyle.

Love, the tiredofallthis Sheena Lau

I'm slowly getting closure, I guess it's really over

2011-02-19T17:17:00.000+08:00

I'm back!!

For the time being, as after I'm done typing this, I would need to START my mugging session. And I am screwed... Like.. Really screwed.. No joke!

Let me break it down to you why and how I am screwed...

IN MATHS.. Wahahaha!(Too bad for those who hate Maths*insert biggest smile ever*)

Exams start on the 1st of March.

Today is the 19th of February.

Wait... Why should I even consider today since I already spend more than half the day sleeping? Heck! Shall sleep more and start tmr...

Anyway, as I was saying,

Exams start on the 1st of March.

I would only be able to start tomorrow, 20th of February.

Means I only have 9 days to study.

I have 3 papers to cover.

I have a total of 25 chapters to cover.

Now, in Elementary Maths version, it means...

(9 Hours x 24 Hours) / 25 Chapters = 8.64 Hours per Chapter...

Yea right...

If it was that easy den life would awesome BUT sadly, in reality aka Additional Maths version, i would need to add in the hours whereby I sleep, eat, watch Funshion, shower, use the washroom and... shop online..HAHAHAHA.. ok fine, I shall eliminate that...

So back to calculation!

9 days.

25 chapters.

I shall sleep for 5 hours a day so means I have a total of 45 hours to sleep.

I take an hour to eat my meal because I include TV hours as well so means... 27 hours to eat.

I shall restrict myself to watching only 2 episode per day so means ... 18 hours.

I take an hour for my shower( Hello!, I need to dry my hair, apply eye cream, apply moisturizer, use hair serum etc!)... 18 hours.

I shall limit myself to 4 water breaks in between the day... 9 hours.

I need at least 12 hours to memorise my stuff for my 1st March paper... 12 hours.

so means I am left with... 87 hours to study for 25 Chapters but sadly, I did not include the hours where I would digress=_=...

Hey! Actually, I am not that screwed after all! Or did I mess up my calculations?

Whatever...

I promise I would update after my papers!=)

I know I kinda made this kind of promises dozens of time but erm... Sorry, I am a busy girl with a busy lifestyle*wink* Hahahaha!

Ooh by the way, I went for a haircut on the 29th of January and chopped off 4 inches and straightened my hair! Shall show you pictures of how it looked like... in the next post... HAHAHAHAHA!=)

Webcam pictures BEFORE my haircut...

No quotes for today! I wana sleep! Hee hee...

Love, the reallyverytiredandshallsleepfirst Sheena Lau

I'm sick of all the insincere

2011-02-01T11:55:00.000+08:00

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn't see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

credit from:thediamondkidd

You can mend my heart but I know very well that it would never be perfect and complete ever again.

No my friends, I am still single and my heart is not broken by ANOTHER guy as what you people are thinking now. Its just a thought that came to my mind, causing me to lose my sleep the night before=_=...

I'm young but I can't add the tracks of my tears from crying

2011-01-30T10:09:00.000+08:00

Hello again my friends!=)

Before you start reading, click on the ad placed right on top of my blog ok?=) Be nice~~

This shall be a short post before as I need to write down the prices for my dear friend, Cheng, for her Garage Sale cum Bazaar event! I would giving her some of my old clothes to sell and I hope there would be some kind souls out there willing to buy my clothes! Hahaha!

Anyway, was reading Audrey Lim's blog and I came across this "picture" which I find it to be meaningful!

Don't you find it pretty true? Hahaha!! Ok la, I guess more of me finding it meaningful la...

Btw, to my love affair if you are reading this,I have been thinking about it for a few days and I realised that I have been such as asshole by going against him all these time. He does have his occasional good points and that is why I am gona wish you all the best with him and don't you ever forget that if he were to bully you *touch wood*, my phone would be available for you 24/7 as usual~~ Love you loads!! XOXO~

Source: TheLoveStories from Twitter

You can’t love with fear in your heart and hesitation in your mind.

Sorry: is just like a band-aid. Just because you use it, doesn't mean it will heal the wound

Without love, respect, honesty and friendship, a relationship doesn’t stand a chance

In the end, you'll realize how cruel your fake friends can be. They're more cruel than your enemies

Life is an echo; all comes back, the good, the bad, the false, & the true. So, give the world the best you have & the best will come back to you

Love, the goingtobebusysoon Sheena Lau

Don't say you love me, you're leaving

2011-01-15T10:36:00.038+08:00

halo!=)

(hello in Malay)

Why the sudden addition of the Malay language in my blog? Well, because I was looking @ my blog statistics and I was curious to find out the nationality of my readers and was surprised to see so many different countries popping up on the data! How did you guys even find me? Hahaha!

Chinese New Year is coming and have any of you guys bought your clothes?=) For my non-chinese mates, Chinese New Year would be start on the 3rd of February and would normally last for a month.

Sadly, I have not due to my busy schedule! But I would start shopping as soon as my BA Bazaar is over!!=)

Sidetrack:

Hey guys, do make the 22nd of January available cause the whole of the business cohort in NP would be having booths set up in Scape's flea market. This is for our entrepreneurship module and so do come down to support us! My booth number is 14 and do come down to purchase my items mainly cause my team-mates and I are DAMN broke now!!=( Be nice and come! Haha!=)

back to topic:

Talking about shopping, who is free after the 22nd?! Ask me out to shop as well ok?=)

Ooh! However, I just ordered 3 items online and they are gorgeous!! Well, at least on the model, I am not even pretty, so the clothes may look disastrous on me...

Jade Paperbag Dress

White Ruched Toga which can be worn 2 way as shown by the 2 model

Both are from Leflirtini and I really liked the Paperbag dress! Its sweet on the front and sexy at the back! Hope it doesnt go OOS!!!

The third dress would be from Theclosetlover and the colour is super..... CNY-ish! Omg.. I know.. broken english but... I just can't find the word for it!

Flutter Sleeve Toga Dress

This has reminded me of something...

I have not done up my shopping check-list! *smack forehead*

Lingerie ( would most probably buy from Cotton On Body)
School Bag
Sandals
Pumps
Bracelets

Alright! I should head back to my Big Bang Theory!=)

Source: ihatequotes from Twitter

The most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched, they must be felt with the heart

Most people are desperately unhappy because they're too busy trying to be someone they wished they were

Trying something new can also contribute to increased self-esteem and make it easier for you to move on
Smile even through your tears. Be strong even through your fears

Love, the needtostudynowbuttoodistracted Sheena Lau

shine a light on her

2011-01-10T15:25:00.001+08:00

Ni Hao!=)

(for my non-chinese friends, it means hello in mandarin)

shall show you a few pictures I took with my awesome FOX sweater!=)

Yea.. was trying to do the YEAH sign...=_= epic failure...

Sorry for being MIA again! Was really busy with my projects and well.. hanging out with friends... hahaha!

Anyway, when I have the time(soon soon!), I would update on my...

Genting trip for the Countdown
Pre-Xmas outing with my 4e2
Random trip to town with love affair
A few random pictures which do not belong to any category because they are just too random

Anyway, update on my life...

To be honest, D was supposed to meet me last Friday to give me an explanation for his actions and well.. to give both of us a chance to make it up for our mistakes. But... starting from Wednesday( or is it Thursday?), D went MIA again and... I really really don't know what to do now... A guy friend told me that perhaps D just needs more time to prepare himself and his speech for me or that things just ain't gona work out between us. I don't know honestly... Should i trust D again? I admit that it was indeed my fault that we had to end... but this time, it is your fault for what happened and I just hope that you would one day resurface and once again be the brave D that i know of 3 years ago.

Anyway, enough talk about D.

I just realised that til now, I have not posted up my 2010 post and I am just so lazy to type it down! But then again, by having that post, I am able to remember what happened during that fateful year and think back upon my mistakes and perhaps, change for a better year, 2011.

Til now, my 2011 has been peaceful and surprisingly, pleasant. I am currently on this book titled All men are until proven otherwise and I quite like this book! Been reading only the first few 50 pages and I am pretty amazed by the author.=)

Source: mr_lovequotes from Twitter

Listening is the attitude of the heart, a genuine desire to be with another which both attracts and heals.

'Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have love at all

True love begins when nothing is looked for in return

Love, the boredandtiredbutstuckinlecture Sheena Lau

Yes, I would die for you, Baby. But you won't do the same.

2010-12-14T20:48:00.000+08:00

Hi friends!=)

Finally, I am down with 2 papers and luckily I have a day off tomorrow, therefore I can have my last-min-mugging-session! After my last paper, I WILL BE FREE LIKE FINALLY! I can finally shop, chill, chit-chat, chalet and camp!....(random note: all the Cs except for "shop" man! omg..)

Ooh! Another random fact : MY PARENTS ARE COMING BACK TONIGHT FROM CHINA, XIAMEN! Omg... Finally... I can stop being the maid of the family and resume my daughter role aka slack @ home and smile @ my mom... HAHAHAHA! Joking la! Since when am I so mean?

In fact, contrary to what my friends are ALWAYS saying... I will do some household chores such as cleaning the dishes!*shy*

Anyway! Christmas is coming and I would really wana celebrate it for once! Yea... my family ain't big on such occasions... Really hope that one day, I would get to enjoy eating home-cooked roasted turkey with my family!=(

Anyway, what are your plans for Christmas?=)

For me...

Hmmm...

Maybe BBQ session @ my house with fellow friends?=) I know for sure that town or any other places in Singapore would be super packed with people and I would rather spend it @ home with a few of my beloved people and friends! Sweet right?=))

Ooh! Since now I am having my mini-break before I continue studying for my remaining 2 papers, I shall list down my shopping list!

skinny belts( black and red/yellow/any other nice colours)
covered flats
sandals
new flip flop( either Ripple or The Little Things She Needs)
tote bag
new dress + top + bottom( at least one each)
black stockings( mine has a hole and I threw it away)
restock my make-up kit
tank tops in all colours!! currently going crazy on this (F21 or Cotton On)

I guess that's all... I know it seems like a lot but well.. Don't forget something... I DO NOT SHOP BRANDED GOODS! So I guess its pretty reasonable?=)

Anyway, if any of you are curious... No.. I am not dating anyone and I would not be doing so as I am gona concentrate on my studies this time round!

My life now is pretty much back to normal and I am satisfied with my current lifestyle=)

No more dramas, No more tears over guys, No more thinking about my own flaws or mistakes! No more!=)

To D

I am not sure whether you would read this but since you already deleted me off not just Facebook but my number as well, what are the chances that you would still be viewing my blog even if you indeed used to frequent this page. I was being curious a few days ago and when I tried to locate you on Facebook, I couldn't find you at all. I decided to head to Selina's Facebook and tried locating you but guess what, you were "missing" as well.

My question to you is this : " Why are you doing this?" I suspect that you deactivated your account? But in the first place, why delete me and Jas off your friends list? Why Jas?! And as for why we ended, the text that you sent me via your OLD PHONE NUMBER is something that i kinda expected. What i wanted, is the truth. They say the truth hurts and that its better to be sorry for the truth rather than being sorry for telling the truth. Until now, I would still think about it. Remember I told u previously that the real reason of why I was unable to let go of my past was because they did not give me the answer, the truth. And now this again? I loved you and I still do but I know that this has to end as this is what you wanted and I shall grant your wish.

Alright! Time for quotes!=)

Source: the viatumblr from Twitter

Action speaks louder than words. Remember ‘well done’ is much better than ‘well said’

The only guy you need in you life is the one that proves that he needs you in his.

Your parents may not be the most perfect one. But they are the most perfect gift God ever given you.

Love, the tired&gonanapnowbeforewakinguptohell Sheena Lau

sink me in the river at dawn, send me away with the words of a love song

2010-12-09T21:24:00.001+08:00

hi friends!

Common Test is coming in a few days and yet I have not started... ok la.. is one lecture of one out my four modules considered? Haha! Anyway, Im screwed but as I was really going through dozens of shit recently, I know that I am gona score super badly for this so... GG=)

Anyway!!

Thankfully my upcoming holiday is gona be SUPER PACKED til the extent that I may not get to have the time to even breathe!! Well, some of you may ask why am I doing this...

I just need get things off my mind... things that hurt me emotionally and ruined my health... things that I don't ever want to recall...things that now made me doubt myself... things that may have changed me and the way i view certain issues... things that made me wana hole up in some corner and hide forever...

Here's my schedule for December!

17 - 18: 4E2 class chalet
21 : I&E event ( come if u are my friend! haha!)
22: Sourcing trip to Malaysia for my booth @ Scape
27- 29: Prep Camp( that is, if I am selected la)
30 - 1 Jan 2011: Genting with awesome dance mates

Hey! Its not that packed eh...=_= fine...

Anyway, from now onwards, I have decided to post some quotes for every single post and @ the end of each post, I would end it in an interesting way which you will find out later!=)

Random pictures and pictures taken when I had my dinner w my Zorine and PeiQin!=)

The super sweet and warm Nutella Pie

My lemonade! Its awesome!!

I think it is the Pear Tart?

My Diva ring...

Little Miss PQ

Little Miss Z

Little Miss S

Til then, stay tuned!=)

Source: TheLoveStories from Twitter

If we hate someone, we tell it to everyone without any fear. If we love someone, we even fear to tell the loved one.

God’s plan is like a movie. All the good and bad things are arranged together for the good ending.

Place your time and energy on someone who will add sunshine to your life. Life is too short to waste on wrong one.

Faith and trust are belief without proof. If you need proof, you don't truly trust!

Trust is the easiest thing in the world to loose, and the hardest thing in the world to get back.

Love, the boredbutstillneedtostudyuntilbonkers Sheena Lau

I was thinking about him,Thinking bout me,Thinking bout us, What we gonna be?Open my eyes,it was only just a dream...

2010-11-28T15:47:00.000+08:00

Hello!!

Decided to do a quick update on my pathetic life( Im serious, it is REALLY very sad)

During the last week of our Oct holidays, i went MIA and before that, i contacted a few of my really close friends, leaving a few words behind for them. And after that, i went MIA...

During that period, I switched off my phone and refused to go onto Facebook & MSN... I would only turned on my phone for an hour each day before switching it off in tears...

The pain was just too unbearable for me.. I refused to consume anything starting from that fateful Wednesday and only came out into the outside on Saturday night as I, along with my friends, volunteered for a NikeRun marathon. And because i didn't want them to know what happened previously, I forced myself to eat some food and that was when I had my first proper meal...

During that same period, I was already sick beforehand and due to what happened,my health deteriorated and that is why even though it has already been one month and 8 days, my health is still pretty much affected in the sense that, I get sick easily and my appetite fluctuates between being SUPER hungry and being NOT hungry at all.

What happened to me? Let's just say that I would not reveal his name or what he has done or what we went through.

He was the guy whom I thought I could really trust myself with and I was falling for him deeply as each day passed by. They say that true love can never be measured by the amount of days and that was what I truly felt and experienced.

Even though he has left me now and I have decided to move on, my heart still have him and our memories in it...

I know its gona be a tough journey for me, crying every night and thinking about him...

Im so lucky to have my friends around me to support me... without them.. I really have no idea what would happen to me... I could even be dead by now... who knows?

And yes, you guys can go ahead and laugh me! A useless ugly bitch who went through 3 failed dating period, always being dumped by guys, stupid and worthless!

I admit, I do find myself a piece of junk in this world...

So many bad things happened and it all revolved around me! My family, my events, my dance, my love life and even my friends.

I do admit and feel that I am losing some of my friends, worse, one of them was someone whom I thought was my close friend, so close that I would tell her literally everything, so close that I felt that I need her, so close that she was literally the one and only person whom I talk to and cry to when things turned bad between me and XJ. I lost her to another friend, someone whom we were both close to, someone who is now her classmate, both being in the same "group". How i know? Its just so damn obvious,especially the way she would plan her birthday and her birthday presents, it was just a huge blow to me... But i can only blame it upon myself, having too much commitments, having so many friends and not being able to balance myself properly. I can only say, Im sorry my love affair. But anyway, I doubt anyone would read this space anyway, it has been dead for quite some time already! I guess, it is better for me anyway! More privacy!

As for that guy...

Well, things were going so damn smoothly! It felt that like forever but i guess the word "forever" never exist in my dictionary cause we ended shortly after I screwed up. It was my fault. I blamed no one except myself. All it took was some fear from my past and my stubbornness.

As i have promised my Ms Tan and my classmate Ms Wong, I will focus on my studies, dance, NPSU and friends from now onwards and am gona stop dating for the time being. I need time to heal my broken heart. I am so damn tired.

Alright, that's all. Bye and stay tuned! I will try to update after my Common Test period!

Love, the heartbrokenandwoundedsoul Sheena Lau

I came to dance-dance-dance-dance

2010-10-19T22:33:00.001+08:00

hello people!=)

As usual, I am kept busy AGAIN for this holiday, resulting in no shopping and no friends-time=(

I MISS MY FRIENDS! =(

Anyway, it is time for me to update and other than updating this lovely space of mine, I too have edited my pages( example, " Blogs that i stalked"), do check it out and give me comments on whether you like or not.

Now now now, before i update about my new set of cosmetic products, let me rave about my lovely hair cut from Chapter 2.

Due to my mother and the unbearable weather, I decided to head back to Chapter 2 to cut my hair and at the same time, change my fringe to my ideal style(something which i have been trying to do for ages as I am really lazy to look for photos as reference). Sadly, as THE camera( it does not belong to me and apparently my ADORABLE-14-YEAR-OLD-LOOK-ALIKE-BUT-IS-ACTUALLY-21 sister kept using the camera for god knows what reason, therefore, I am unable to use the camera, NOT EVEN ONCE.=D) and I are not fated to be together, I am unable to take pictures of my "new" hair. I promise I will start spamming pictures like what a proper blogger should do once I have my own camera... in 5 years time?

Nah! Just joking! Hahahahaha!

But seriously, even though I do hear bad reviews about Chapter 2, I believe, its just the hair stylist that you meet and not the salon itself. For me, I would always look for Jimmy Too from Chapter 2 @ Jurong Point.

Ps: HE IS CUTE and yes, his name is indeed Jimmy Too and not Jimmy Choo=(

Anyway, about my newly bought make-up stash(not yet complete though as I still have not bought my liquid eyeliner and volume mascara etc)! Pictures via my pathetic webcam, im sorry friends!=(

1. L'oreal Paris HIP Colour Chrome Eyeliner in Black Shock: Ah! I heard it was smudge-free and trust me, it is really is. I kept rubbing it when I drew a line on my palm and guess what? It stayed on and boy! I am amazed! No worries, it is easily removed with my eye remover =)

2. Natural Republic Eyelover Eyebrow in Dark Brown: Its pretty effective and easy to use but I should have gotten the light brown instead, its kinda dark on me=(

3. Majolica Majorca Eyeshadow Palette PK740 : Love the highlighter(which is the lightest colour) as it is super shimmery but yet subtle enough

4. Heroine Make Long & Curl Mascara : Well, what can I say, it won an award in the Cleo Magazine 2010=) Enough said.

5. Cleansing Express Eye Makeup Remover: Top 3 in Japan magazine. Hee hee hee=)

6. Cleansing Express Sebum: Highly recommended make up remover which functions as a 3-in-1 where it works as by Remove makeup+ Cleanser+ Toner.

That is all for now!=)

PS: will update about my USS trip with my dance clique when I have the time=)

tried to take a picture of love, didn't think i'd miss her(him) that much

2010-09-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

Hi guys! I am back=)

*throws pom pom into the air*

Sorry for neglecting this space but i know that are hardly any people keep tracking anyway! Hahaha!

Well recently, I had a performance in Ngee Ann for a F1 event which was held in our Convention Center along with Magnum Force. And yes, I saw my dearest friend, Gabriel, a friend whom i missed dearly.

We had to report at 7am and guess what, I had to wake up at a bloody 5am for this event.=_=

Ok fine, maybe its because i do take quite some time to prepare but well.....

Girls are after-all.... Girls=)*wink*

We then had our mini rehearsal before we had to start changing into our pink costumes( yea, I seems to be hearing Jas and BQ squealing in delight)

Overall, I have to admit that either the management of the event sucks to the core and there was some miscommunication as our dancers had ZERO preparation nor mental preparation before the dance started and basically, we started the dance in a bad way. The whole dance was screwed up and well, there were a few drops of tears here and there.

Luckily, our mood lifted when our beloved and adorable dance instructor suggested a photo-taking session with the awesome and gorgeous F1 cars parked just inside the Convention Center!=)

And after our pictures were taken, costumes changed out and with our thick make-up removed, we headed for lunch @ Makan Place where Love and I introduced Ban Mian to my SBS( my BFFs<3). After a quick lunch, we girls went to town for shopping and of course, pictures were taken!=)

you can stop squinting your eyes, you cant spot me here as I am way WAY behind and hidden=) But good luck if you wana try spotting me!

My Huayians!=)

the guys

the real car for F1 and not some remakes of certain models

my SBS : Sulin, BeeQi & Sheena ♥

next up will be the pictures taken in town!

Location: FEP toilet, FEP's casual restaurant @ basement and outside DFS Galleria(just across FEP)

Yes, my love aka Jaslyn Tan saw this horse in a particular shop @ level 1 and she was so fascinated with it, she almost bought it home if not for the high price attached to it. It costs almost SGD3K! Thank god for that if not, it would have been part of her house by now.

now for some "me-time"=) hee hee...

grrr!!!=)

Bye and til then, take care!=)

I wana be a billionaire

2010-09-05T15:09:00.001+08:00

hey people!! Sheena Lau is here for a short mini update before she would dive into a sea of notes!! Woohoo!!=_=

Currently I am having my papers, left with 2 now before my holiday would start and that is where i will go shopping like finally!!=)

Do i sound like a bimbo?

Nah!

Anyway, here is quick update on my schedule for September!

14th, 19th - 20th : F1 TRM Ambassador ( i get to meet hunks!! omg..)
17th : NP Huayians Gathering

My plan for the holidays!

Baking Sessions with the double AAs( my close friends whose names both start with A!)
Shopping (with anyone who is willing to go with me! haha!)
Catching up Sessions with friends( Esp my sec sch mates!)
Slim down!( Fat Fat FAT! arg!)
Chalets
Steamboat Session with TR02( not confirmed yet)

That is all for now!

Life is pretty boring now so I guess I can only entertain you with my webcam pictures! *squeals* Enjoy and you may want to prepare a dustbin nearby just in case! But then again, for the people who care for me... I know you will bear with it!!♥

ok wow... I look like some lunatic here.. Nvm... I know you guys will still ♥ me right?=)

aww! I look so normal now...=)

I am not sure whether you guys do notice, but anyway, I dont have put all my webcam pictures onto Facebook! Reason being that I do not want to be bombarded by people who would commented that I am shameless etc. No worries! No one has called me that anyway and even if someone were to do so, the whole world would have known as I am known to announce to the world on who have offended me! hahahahaha!!

Alright! That's all for now, BYE!=)

a change in my life

2010-08-22T00:15:00.002+08:00

Hey guys! Its been close to one month since i have last updated my now-dead blog and so before i head to bed, shall do a mini-update for the sake of my poor blog!=)

So what have I been up? Let me try and recall...

sadness disappointment anger tears tired

I guess these emotions can sum up my feelings and what I have been through since July till now.

Yea yea, I know that I am being some emotional freak right now but I can't help it alright?

This is ME!

Right now, things ain't smooth for me... Let me make it easier for you guys by listing down the reasons ok?

keep thinking about C and X
exams coming but till now, no motivations
body breaking down
fat body now, need to DIET
broke girl = sad girl

Oh wow! Now it seems clearer right?=)

Another thing, due to meeting new people often and with my personality, I am someone who likes making new friends and now, I am sad to say that I feel distanced from my closer friends...

H : someone whom I became close with after I joined NPSU and is now one of the most important person in my life. I know that she too has her own friends but then again, I really missed the days where it was just the two of us. I know that sometimes being in different courses do result in being hard to meet up w her often but then again, who can I blame? A is indeed our close friend too but sometimes...(omg i sound like some boyfriend) I just feel so weird when i see the both of them meeting up before meeting the rest of us and sometimes arranging to do certain stuff together... aaah! Enough said!

X,Z,M : my main clique from my secondary school. Enough said, it's been months since we met up and i really missed their nonsense so much!

L: someone whom im close to thanks to our seating arrangement.. from helping her in her studies, we end up as super close friends... Really missed that girl, she's the few who can tolerate my abuse and the few who would dare to yell and scold me.

I do have other close friends now such as my Hephaestus darlings who knows so much of my shit and secret i swear i can kill them and people such as Andrea & Ash( got close to them thanks to X but then again, i should thank him right?=_=) and my classmates such as Jess, Gwyn, Binni, Gab and a few more...

Or maybe this is fate?

That I meant to not have any clique at all and just flutter among my other cliques. It sucks though, even when it sounds like I have many friends.

This feeling just sucks!

the stars have stopped shining

2010-07-28T01:35:00.002+08:00

Hi and yes, X and I have ended our dating period.

Was it my fault? Maybe?

Was it his fault? Maybe?

I know that we may seem fast to many people, from strangers to dating and all but well, I guess when the guy seems right for you, you just go for it?

Am i affected? I wont deny and say no.

But then again, this is life.

It is time to move on.

A quote i created

"when the sun sets, the stars will shine and even when one star is missing, the world is not yet and the night will still be bright"

I know some things that he never expected me to know and it was because of that, I decided to not pursue him no matter how much i like him.

In another words, I decided to give up on him and move on.

And because of my damn fucked up love life, I decided to block my mind and heart. Just focus on my studies and head straight for my goals.

to X:

I know everything. And even though I know how much I miss you, I am going to move on. It is useless holding onto something that will reap no sow and end up being hurt again. Looks like being friends was what we should have done a long time ago. Thanks for the 2 months and 5 days of memories that you have created with me. i wish you all the best in your dance and work. A quote for you "I want us to be friends when we say goodbye" . We did not say a proper goodbye and when that day comes, I know that I will say it with a heavy heart but yet with a smile on my face. I will shake your hands, smile and walk away from your life as a partner and enter again as your friend forever.

can we pretend that the airplanes in the night sky are wishing stars

2010-07-05T21:39:00.005+08:00

Hey guys!! I am sorry for being MIA for like 2 months?!! gosh!

But do u miss me?=) HAHAHAHAHA!

Anyway, currently i have been tied down by projects and assignments all due during July! Adding on, i do not cam-whore as often now( yea, i can imagine the look of shock on people who know me well) and neither do i have go out often enough to take pictures.

Time for update!!

currently rushing dumbass projects which all happened to be due this month
dating X for 2 months plus( the furthest compared to other guys!)
boring but fulfilling life=)

I guess those who chanced upon my blog will be wondering who is Mr X? Well, i would not reveal his looks or name in my blog as we still dating but yea, he is indeed the furthest i've gone compared to the other guys which i've only dated for 1 month or even lesser!

How i met him? Well, he is my senior whom i met during one of the NPSU camps and yes, he is a dancer! hahaha! I guess many would have known but yea, ever since i picked up dance as a passion, i've always wanted to date a dancer and now i have done it! Whoo! Well done Sheena Lau!*pat on shoulder*

Anyway, i do have many posts but all are super outdated unless you guys don't mind?

Nah! I shall see my mood and the number of people chasing after me to update my blog! Hahahaha!=)

Pictures taken with my HP webcam!!=)

Do i look fierce when i have no emotions on my face? HAHAHA!

Will update asap!=)

back!! for the time being...

2010-05-05T06:13:00.003+08:00

hey guys! Now is 6.14am and i woke up at 5am just to do my tutorial which i gave up halfway as i am just to lazy to complete it... HAHAHAHA!=_=

anyway, as i still have roughly half an hour before i wash up and prepare for a another LONG day in school, i've decided to do a mini update for my poor blog... which reminds me that it's time for me to edit my profile again.. arrg!!

ANYWAYS~~

here's an update for my schedule=))

12th-14th → TRM cruise trip for LAM module( not for leisure ok?!)
fix a date for sec sch clique meet-up
fix a date to meet 2 darlings( SL + BQ) to pass them their birthday gifts and catching up session
fix a date to meet up with hephie babies for HTHT session

so yeap! basically this is what my schedule would be like.. for the time being...

well.. so what have i been up to these few weeks after my recent post?

ps: im really lazy, so im gona just update in point form!XD

HTHT session with some friends and it was a sad session cause both times... they were both down on their luck.. like.. seriously down=(
started dating again
thoughts of him are getting lesser but.. it is still affecting me emotionally
trying to start revising but on 3 attempts, i just fall back asleep=_=

i guess that's it?

opps!! its time to wash up now!!

i promised i would collate the pictures taken during the holidays and post them up!! even though its like.. a few months ago?XD

tc!!=D

favourite color(s)

2010-04-24T15:04:00.003+08:00

hello!!

yeap! cause i know that my blog is dying and therefore, here's a short post for you guys!!=))

came across someone's blog and read about some extract from "http://www.care2.com/greenliving/favorite-color-personality.html?&page=2"

and basically.. this is what roughly sums up my characteristics...

Pink: This color embodies the gentler qualities of Red, symbolizing love and affection without passion. Women who prefer Pink tend to be maternal. Pink desires protection, special treatment and a sheltered life. Pink people require affection and like to feel loved and secure, perhaps wanting to appear delicate and fragile. Pink people tend to be charming and gentle, if a trifle indefinite.

50% accurate! Especially the 3rd and 4th line, although the 2nd part of the 4th line is kinda wrong?? i think? do i really want to appear delicate and fragile??

Yellow: The color of happiness, wisdom and imagination, Yellow is chosen by the mentally adventurous, searching for novelty and self-fulfillment. Yellow usually goes with a sunny and shrewd personality, with a good business head and a strong sense of humor. It is the color of intellectuality and all things to do with the mind. Yellow folks are usually clear and precise thinkers who have a good opinion of their own mental capacities and who have lofty ideals. They may at times tend to shun responsibility, preferring freedom of thought and action.

my really favourite colour... just that why does it seems so.. not me?? hmmm...

Purple: Purples are highly individual, fastidious, witty and sensitive, with a strong desire to be unique and different. Temperamental, expansive and artistic, a Purple person may become aloof and sarcastic when misunderstood. If you chose Purple, you tend to be unconventional, tolerant and dignified, likely to achieve positions of authority.

well... to be honest, purple ain't my favourite colour, just that many people told me i suit that colour??=_= But if i were to have it as my favourite colour, the only thing that i think describes me well is that i am indeed temperamental!!

ok!! that's all! stay tuned for the next post!! =DD

that's when i love you

2010-04-18T21:48:00.005+08:00

hey people!! sorry for being MIA for so so so long!!

for poly, holidays are the days when we have the most amount of freedom!

we can play all we want, work or even go overseas without worrying about school work!

but for me?

i have a fruitful holiday! below would be a summary of what i did during the holidays!

prepare for FOC10/11
bonding sessions with 48 GLs and beloved Hephaestus
FOC 10/11
met someone from my past
started dating him
HTHT sessions
outings and outings and endless outings
prepare for BAOC'10
falling for him
outings and chalets and BBQs
we ended
spend the last few days crying @ home and being grounded

interesting holiday i had...

alright! will update with this dying blog with pictures from previous outings and the times i spent with my beloved FOC mates while preparing for FOC and plus the times i spent with my naughty but cute freshies!!<3

i know i will wait for u no matter what.

i will always be supporting u all the time even if u push me away cause i know u are very vulnerable during these times..

i miss you..

i finally said it..

BACK!!

2010-03-29T23:18:00.002+08:00

omg!! im finally back for good!! FOC was great this year! and im was so happy when my freshies told me they wanted to be a Group Leader as well as they wanted to be as crazy as me!!! =DD

ok anyway, this is just a short post as im super tired and gona sleep soon!

i shall update w pictures of our preparation during the 2 months for FOC 10/11 tmr!!

STAY TUNED!!=DD

stressed

2010-03-14T13:46:00.003+08:00

ok people... i am all ready to flare now... so those who are hoping to look at my 70 plus pictures will have to wait for the next post... in the meanwhile, continue with your blog-hopping if u dont wish to dampen your mood by reading this... thanks

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i am so freaking stressed up now!!

STRESS!

TIRED!

TENSED!

ANXIOUS!

SCARED!

like.. wtf?! i felt worse than during the exam periods!! why? cause im worried and stressed over things that i know perfectly well that i cant control!

when i need people to help me, almost all end up busy! and i know i cant blame them as they too have their own lives to lead and this is just a small matter to them!

im not asking people to sacrifice their love lives or family for me or for this... all i want is just a bit of your time!

in a few days, this thing would be over!! so so over!!

i dont get it...

tam was right! why should i be so fucking stressed up and freaked out when no one else is feeling the same as me??

the thing is, i too want to have a break.. to just lepak lepak...

but then it dawned upon me that if i would to do so, who would be there to hold up the group? who would be able to discipline them?

i know i need to distribute my responsibilities cause after all..ONE FOR ALL, ALL FOR ONE

but... may i know.. who can i pass it on to? either they are busy with respective partners or else they too have their own family issues or else... im too scared to trust them with such responsibilities cause i still find them a bit too playful!

WHO CAN I PASS IT ON TO?!! can someone just step up and talk to me personally?!!

i am in no position to shoot people or to criticize them... these are just my personal thoughts...

i've been so freaked out that @ times, i would catch myself staring @ one spot for ages or that my mind would suddenly go blank!!

i need a break.. i need to let it out... i really want to talk to u about this issue... but u too are down.. i dont want this to be a heavy burden to u... nor do i want to see u in your " scary monster" state that i have been told occurred before and it ain't nice...

i just hope that i won't collapse before FOC...

road to happiness

2010-02-28T20:07:00.007+08:00

replies to tag:

passerby→ hahahaha!! that is super kind of u? i have a feeling u are somehow related to us? if not, u would not have been this kind~ sulin is obviously pretty! i, however am not~ but thx for your comment anyway~=D

hey guys! im back to my blogging routine!=D

however, during March, i would not be able to blog that often due to 2 upcoming camps and 1 chalet which would be tmr!

schedule:

1-3 → Hephaestus chalet
5 → outing with Joyce Dear♥
6-9 → FOC 10/11 Trial Camp
23-28 → FOC 10/11 Official Camp

busy busy March! But i would still find time to hang out with my friends though~ especially my secondary mates whom i miss dearly!! =(

anyway, i shall update this post with

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28th January 2010

HOM practical test & Zorine's birthday celebration

phew! long title which has like.. erm.. no link to my above title.. but anyway!!

but due to some technical problems, my laptop could not open like.. 53 pictures? and so i just asked adeline to send me via e-mail!

but in the meanwhile, i can upload some pictures from zorine's birthday celebration!!

zorine's part of my sec clique!!♥ her~=D

on that day, we had a surprise for her and the plan was:

everyone pretend to be busy with projects and studying for exams while i would SOMEHOW be free and have a birthday dinner with her @ Holland V's Swensen!!!

And as usual, that girl would ask " why go there?", while i would reply " cause there have student price la!"

When in actual fact, everyone would already be waiting for us inside the restaurant!!

cool right?!!=DD

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and so, on that day, after my HOM practical test( i would elaborate more on it after i received the pictures!), i "flew" to SP to find that girl and guess what???

half the people were already at Dover Mrt waiting for that girl while i arranged to meet her @ there as well!! and so i immediately called her and told her i would enter the school's compound and find her!!

While all the time, me and peiqin were texting each other so that i could know when to bring her out and so, i had to pretend that i wanted to buy a magazine and a sweet in cheers hoping to delay enough time. But nooooooo... they were still on the way there and so i had to pretend i wanted to use the toilet and after that i had to pretend that i wanted to buy some stationaries for school=_= wasted my money ='(

and so, finally we were able to leave and we took the bus to Holland V but!!

i heard wrongly about where to alight and end up, we missed the stop and we had to walk a fucking 20-30 min back to Holland V man!! and just nice, the weather was scorching hot and erm, while walking, that girl was blaming me T.T

finally we reached and weehee!! it was a pleasant surprise for her!!

and after dinner, we had to PULL her to the void deck for her birthday cake as she kept whining that she wanted to cab home=_= i had to pull her with all my strength man!! a tiring way to end the day thx to her... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

pictures!!

same pose!! hahahaha~~

liwen tan!♥

the dress & cardigan from Cotton On nice rite?=DD

the girls with meiqi missing=(

u see?!! she's trying to run away from us=_=

her bodyguards~ HAHAHAHAHAHA!

and finally, ending off with me~=D

that's all guys! i promise i would update asap!!!XD

FREEDOM!

2010-02-25T07:38:00.002+08:00

omg!!!!

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released from hell @ 26th Feb 2010 4.30pm!!!!

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHOPPING! FOC! FRIENDS! GATHERINGS! 02 PEEPS! HUAYI CLIQUE! OMG!!! MAD HAPPY!!!

=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

E X A M spells disaster

2010-02-08T12:46:00.002+08:00

hello people!!

first thing first, i would like to announce that i would only blog again after my exams which would be on the 26th feb!

and to those people who are starting their year 1 in any poly this year, YES! our EOY examinations are during the chinese new year period and this means that you would either have to start studying months beforehand( which is kinda impossible with all the projects due either Jan or early Feb leaving you with no time to study for your exams especially for tourism courses) or else, study in between the free period while travelling to people's houses for visiting!

but anyway, here's my schedule for the month of Feb

8th - 19th : studying period( most probably going out only on Day 1 of CNY)
20th: ITB
22nd: HOM
23rd: BMGT
24th: MACRO
26th: FABM

for my March holidays, i would MOST probably be fully booked for FOC' 10/11!

ps: cya then freshies!=D

here's a few pictures to entertain you guys!

would try to update my blog in between those periods, but no promises!

i would make it up for you guys by spamming pictures after my exams ok?=D

21ST BIRTHDAY!

2010-02-05T09:37:00.006+08:00

okok~~ sorry for the technical problems that resulted in me not being able to read adeline's pictures=_=

and so.. to make up for it, i have a new post=D

i shall post about

23th Jan 2010 = xx's 21st party

at that day, i had my 1st GL training for FOC 10/11 and it was awesome!!=D

<3>

anyway, we had to play this game that needed us to trust each other and we took close to an hour( 59 min to be precise)!! crazy crazy...

and therefore i was super late and i panicked and cabbed down to Bukit Gombak.. damn it! wasted 10 bucks=_=

anyway... pictures!!=D

when we 1st arrived

taken with ailin's phone camera

guests have to sign a book upon arrival~

jing wei=D my bus buddy and president of dance group le~~

you may find the girl a bit unfamiliar cause well, i guess it's the 1st time she appeared in my blog? anyway...

she's ailin, my dance group=D

soon, night falls and it was our turn to perform our gee gee gee baby baby~~

the link to the video!

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1370968393393

after that, was the cake cutting ceremony and more pictures!!

the balloon that drove us crazy!!!

we even took it outside for more pictures!!*shakes head*

XIU XUAN!the birthday girl!<3

alumni with some random kid~~

cake!

our erm... leftovers...

balloon master of the day

us handing her the present and we shook hands!

as though it was some formal event.. HAHAHA

receiving birthday necklace from mother

random pictures

omg!! THIS KID IS CUTE TTM OK?!! jas and i spent the whole night playing with him!!!

birthday girl with her family

before we left, birthday girl gave out 2 red packets for the winners of the theme

" BLING BLING"

we left the place at around 9 plus and..

i am changing ok???=D

2010-02-05T00:43:00.003+08:00

omg!! i seriously dont get it!! i am really updating more often ma~=(

anyway.. today i am a happy girl as you can see from my recent fb status=D

reasons?

last day of school
last presentation( means no more projects!(Y))
ate @ Astons @ The Cathay
BOUGHT MY NEW PEACH COLOURED WALLET FROM CHARLES&KEITH
gab sent me home(shiok! have company)
HEPHAESTUS IS SUPER HIGH ON MSN TODAY!(Y)

okok.. shall update on my most recent event and this will be FLOODED with pictures( of course not just me la!=_=)

28th Jan 2010 = HOM practical test aka ZORINE'S BIRTHDAY

for the sake of my readers who are not from my course, HOM refers to Hospitality & Operation Management module.

anyway, i had a practical test which means i had to pretend to be some front desk receptionist and i had to check in a guest and we would be given a surprise question each.

my surprise question?

" can u introduce to me any of your festivals in Singapore and when should i revisit this country for this festival?"

well, as i was already super nervous with my mind not focusing.. i had to think longer for a reply and while trying to gain time for me to think i replied

" i am sorry, could you repeat that question again?"

and while my classmate repeated that question, i had to think of an answer and came up with Chinese New Year.

now, don't ask me for my answer cause its stupid and retarded and i felt like a fool after i answered the question=_=

anyway, after that presentation, we took LOTS OF PICTURES with adeline's camera

we took like.. 70 plus pictures?? so.. erm.. i shall not have captions then! i am way too lazy tonight!! opps! i meant.. this morning.. it is 1:06am now..=_=

ok! sorry guys~ now is 1:23am and i just realised my laptop is not able to read the pictures if they were sent from adeline's msn=_= nvm.. stay tuned then~ i shall fix my laptop or ask her to send again~=D

busy busy bumble bee!!!

2010-01-29T14:14:00.008+08:00

replies to tag:

YC:hahaha!!sure ma?!! last yr pq said the same thing, end up only a brief KBox sessionXD

fifi:THX DEAR!!=DDD

hello people!! sheena lau is back again!=D

and yes! i've changed my font from " Trebuchet" to " Verdana"! Which is better? Don't forget to tell me alright?=D

anyway, these few days, Sheena Lau have been busy rushing all her dumbass to the head projects and had to resort to having project mates staying over @ her house for 2 days=_=... JUST TO RUSH THE INTEGRATED PROJECT! FUCK IT!!

but before that, i have already been sleeping for less than 4 hours almost daily!

end up?

severe flu which made me killed half a forest
crazy throat that resulted in random lose of voice
increased in appetite=_=
mood swing

and im just a year 1... im beginning to worry about my year 2 and final year's life=(

before i post about my date w my sec sch dance girlfriends, there's a topic that i would like to talk about

restaurants

had a msn conversation with a guy friend( i think you will know its you~ HAHAHA!) last night and well, i was kinda inspired to have this topic for today's post=D

we were 1st chatting about food and i said i was quite fussy about what i eat and he suddenly replied this " so u prefer high-end food?"

well, i had a slight shock cause, i thought he meant that cause he knew about my status and i replied back " no ah, i like dining at mid-scale restaurants due to the ambience but my favourite food are all located in the hawker/coffee shops"

and then he explained that cause many girls enjoyed dining at restaurants( casual service, mind you. example: Fish&Co.) and that when i paused for a moment.

is it true that girls really enjoyed fast food and restaurant cuisines rather than the typical local cuisines? and that they really enjoyed spending so much money on food rather than clothes?!! super omg!!

chicken rice? nasi lemak? lor mee? poh piah?

U DARE SAY NO TO THESE?!

tsk tsk... seriously, i don't get it...

for me, i would dine at mid-scale restaurants only when i am on a date or when i am hanging out with my girlfriends or when i have the cash or when my class ended some major formal presentation that caused us our stomachs to have millions of butterflies fluttering about!=D

but other than that, i would rather dine at hawker centers

reasons:

cheap
large portions
childhood taste
no need to dress up
no need to act chi chi by seating properly and having your legs in some super awkward position=_=

but then again, there are times when i myself would prefer restaurants, the difference tastes and the pretty places, the awesome decorations in the restaurants and of course, the air-con XD

anyway! now is for my update on my super long ago date!=D

19th Dec 2009: outing with girlfriends

so sorry girls! now then i updated!!XD

well, on that day, our initial plan was to lunch at one of the cafes in Haji Lane before shopping down the 2 lanes

however, the bad weather forced us to cab down and THERE WERE PRACTICALLY NO CAB IN SIGHT FOR US!!=((

so we retreated inside boring Bugis Junction but!! we enjoyed the day due to the presence of our beloved girls~=D

but after lunch, we managed to flag a cab and off we went to Haji Lane, only to came out disappointed=_=

pictures!!

while having lunch @ HK cafe=D

bee qi darling<3>

sulin qi ai de~<3>

after a full lunch, we cabbed down to Haji Lane and went into Victoria Jomo

MY FAVOURITE PAIR OF SHOES THERE!!<3

all the shoes there were wacky! but they were super comfy man!

PS: anyone want to sponsor me?=D

if i am not wrong, this shoes cost a freaking SGD110!!!

to some people it could be cheap, but for normal girls like me? it's fucking expensive!

2nd favourite!!=D

while walking back to Bugis Junction for tea and chi-chatting session

initial plan was Starbucks, but too crowded.

well, end up we chose, J.Co Donuts

while waiting for BQ and Shanice to buy their food, we cam-whored!=D

my pretty qin ai de~=D

yeap! this pretty babe here is Shanice, who is actually SL's younger sis=D

initially wasn't close to her, but after seeing her a few times during our gathering, i realised she's a SUPER LOVELY GIRL!!=D all the best for your Os!!=D

and ooh, i bought my body suit and bandage skirt from cotton on! <3>

alright! that's all for now! i still have many pictures to upload!!! oh dear~~

tc people!!=D

are birthdays all happy??

2010-01-23T00:05:00.003+08:00

hell yea~~ look at my title...

even if one day, you dont feel happy on your birthday.. do you still wish yourself a "happy" birthday??

today is WONG FH's 19th birthday!!

message to him: hey kor!! thanks for everything that u did for me, buying juices specially for me knowing that i love them during our 1st class chalets and being such an awesome person!! you're a great guy and im super honored to have you as my classmate and kor~ i know you ain't a person who can express himself well, physically or with words. But don't worry, i can understand that and our class will love you regardless=D take care and all the best for your love life and studies!!=D

ok back~

anyway... well.. im going whine and be drama-mama again in this post, so haters... move aside=_=

people would say " woah sheena! same birthday as your mom! cool man!" but guess what?

i hated it...

hate the fact that my birthday falls on the same day as my mom... of all people..

WHY HER?!

not that i hate my mom... i do love her...

reason then?

she's a person who doesn't give a damn about birthday celebrations and that is why... she has never planned a birthday party for herself.. along w mine...

so since young, my bro and sis would happily have their own birthday parties and accepts gifts from friends and relatives...

for me?

i cannot reveal my birthdays to friends and relatives( therefore i have never had a proper celebration with them as... they would celebrate my mom's one as well=_=)
i cannot accept birthday gifts since child and my mom had thrown all my birthday gifts=_=
i do not have gifts even from my parents
my mom would only buy a cake when i cried when i was young

well?.. that is why.. even when i have birthday gifts now, i would NEVER show them to my family.. for fear that my mom would throw it away...

and especially when it comes to belated birthday presents... my mom said that i was born a suay kid and that is i cannot accept belated birthday gifts as i would be even more suay... =_=

BUT THIS DOES NOT MEAN U CAN STOP BUYING IT! i would hide it from her of course!!

and well.. that is also why every year, when it comes to my birthday.. i've always prayed and prayed for a PROPER BIRTHDAY PARTY...

cause i never had one before... even during sec school, almost all my friends would be happily holidaying... or else.. we have homeworks and assignments due=_=

and yea.. i have never blamed my sec sch clique for not having a birthday party... we are just to busy...

and well, now? June is the month where poly students prepare for mid-year paper...

super..

WTF!!KNN!!

all i want is just ONE birthday party? is it really that difficult?

do i really have to wait until i reach the age of 50 before i can have one?

especially one planned by my family?

so disappointed...

omg.. cant believe.. im crying over this#$%$^%$%^

previous year, SOMEONE promised me he would organise one birthday party for me, but now that he is attached.. i doubt he would really do so...

nvm.. forget it... im just as suay as my mom always said....

alright, off to bed now, night and take care people!

hello!!! back again!

2010-01-17T14:46:00.000+08:00

hi people!! yea.. im slow again.. but hey!! erm.. at least.. this is the 2nd week since my previous post ok?!!! hahaha!!

anyway.. just a quick update

i would not be able to blog according to my resolution's schedule as my end-of-year papers are here!=_= sucky i swear!!

anyway.. an update on my recent schedule for the month of Jan:

19th → Macro Test DURING THE EVENING =_= followed by project='(
22nd → FH's birthday celebration with a WACKY LIKE HELL theme!=D
22nd → deadline for Business Management
22nd → deadline for Life Management Skills
23rd → GL training
27th → deadline for Food&Beverage Management cum Hospitality Operation Management

sucky right?=(

the worst has yet to come ok?!

my EOY paper is during the CHINESE NEW YEAR PERIOD!!!

seriously wtf man!!! grr!!

ok!! off to proposals and studying for Macro~~ bye people and erm.. try to stay tuned

hee hee~~=D